down..down..down

Salam,
muzik latar: semua lagu2 sedih~


  Ni sesi utk meluahkan perasaan. Aku rasa macam x da masa depan pulak.. =_=.. ntah la.. Tadi companies luar datang UTP wat exhibition.. Exhibition tu sempena Career Placement Week (CPW) and geng ak Zulai is one of the commitee for that event.. cayalah zulai!! CPW ni khusus untuk students yg nak dapatkan placement for internship (for 3rd year student) and job (for final year). So, whats the matter? x yah pikir pun x pe. ak masih 1st year kut.. mude ag.. tp atas kesedaran awal, akhir tahun depan ak dah nk intern kut..hohho.. kisahnya bermula begini......... ak dan farhana musa attend one of the career talk given by INTEL corp. pada masa yg sama ada career talk Schlumberger. Schlumberger is my dream company (jgn bgtaw petronas, ak nk belot sekejap)~ sbb the sound of that company just like " selambe jek" so, bila kerja nanti buat selambe jek je lah.. best~
Tetapi bila dipikir2 balik, elok ak g talk intel sbb ade kaitan ngn komputer.. ak nanti kan kerja ngan komputer.. so, pegi je lah kat talk Intel dgn perasaan yang x da perasaan. 


  At the talk ak ngan farhana je dak 1st year ICT, yg len students final year Engineering. Mr. Kalai (nama penuh n jawatan die ak dah lupe lak) bagi briefing about the company and job vacancy yang ada. menarik jgk ah sket. tetibe ak rasa cam dah matang.. heee..tetapi.. bila tiba Q&A session, ak pun bertanya la "Is there any job vacancy for IT students at intel ?" jwapan yg dia bagi: less because intel seeks more towards Electrical Eng students.. Senang kata dak 2 engine je lah companies2  banyak target. dak2 IT/IS selalu dipinggirkan.. cis,kecewa beb. Ak pun jadi x da motivasi diri.. down..down.. grrrrr..


  Tetapi, Mr Kalai tahu kut ak cam muka x puas hati, so dia sambung jawapan dia tu : Don't worry.. please do not restrict yourself. Don't think that what u take now, is what you'll be for the whole your life. You can be what u want to be as long as u try hard to achieve it. and bla bla..


Tup..tup..ak sedar satu perkara.. sebenarnya ak nak jadi apa ek? apa sebenarnya yg ak nak?minat pun dah x da.what the reason i study for? ak nak achieve ape pun ak x taw. aku dah x da cita2 la..take this course pun dengan perasaan yang x da perasaan. Ak cume taw satu mende je. x nak kecewakan abah n umi.. but what should i do?? /(=_=)\




p/s: cgpa sem lepas teruk maa.. abah ckp,ak dah kecewakan abah. ak teruk.